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Sometimes I really wish that I could turn back time and change my decisions whenever I feel like it. Oh, how I wish I could right all my wrongs, well, most of my wrongs (don't wanna Mr. Perfect). I don't want to change everything that went wrong, just the part that makes me regret my decision immediately after making it.

I wish that life was more like writing an English paper. The instructor tells you to write a paper about a certain topic and hand it in the next week. And you finish the paper, you hand it in and get it back the next class. The instructor tells the class that you can improvise your paper hand in the final piece the following week. So, you make the necessary changes that are required and you new grade will be better than you old one, naturally. Now, that is what I wish life was. For me that is, and for me alone. Well, I can't have everyone in the world getting better can I. I am selfish when it concerns me, just like every Tom, Dick and Harry out there.

People are just like that. It’s in our genetic make up to better us, to make us look good and better than all the rest that is the human way. People enjoy seeing other people more miserable than us, just because it’s not us. I like the German word for it; it has a certain aura about it, Schadenfreude, a joy in the sight of the pain of others. So why can’t I have a wish that I turn back time and improvise my life and making my life more interesting and more fulfilling that it actually is (not that I’m complaining or anything, but you know maybe life could be better). I guess it’s simply because in my life the grass is always greener on the other side and I just want a little bit of the action, a slice of the pie. I just want grass to be green to. I sound like a person who is disgusted with life don’t I. I don’t know, maybe I am.

I guess that I am loosing faith in mankind…………….

Well, that’s all for my ramblings for now. Tune in next time for more ramblings for those who actually read my stuff……..